Just kidding. There is no such thing as a vacation on the horizon for me; unless you count the fact that I am going to bed as soon as I am done here. Still, it doesn't hurt to wish, does it?
This was a bipolar day. Monday blues in the morning, a weird bliss in the traffic, zoned out most of the 8am class, texted Phillip the rest of the morning and then slid into a major paranoid frenzy when I realized just how grave the situation is concerning my radiopharmacy class, for which the first exam is tomorrow. (Insert horrified scream!)
I lined up in Burnett Hall for 45 minutes, then got to the window only to find that I was supposed to be in Victor Hall...so I went there and lined up for an hour, then the chica at the window said come back tomorrow. (Insert Lightning and Thunder)
On a happy note,Allie called me and made me laugh, at her and at myself and at life in general. If she were a book, she'd be my diary. It is kinda spooky how much we have in common-including this bizarre and completely old ladyish(In my world it is perfectly okay to make words up as you go) need to sit outside and just absorb, you know, life. Allie, I know you'll read this-I love that I can be 83 years around you and its all good!
I missed Zumba today because I was stupidly falling apart in the parking lot following the afternoon's insanity, but I ran all the way up stairs in the rain before I collapsed into a weirdly deep nap in which I saw my life story and all the things I achieved (and didn't achieve) and heard the mean voice telling me how much more I can do with my life if only I believed in myself more and pushed harder.
Yes, it gets a little sickening. All the things people(or voices for that matter) tell you when you are 20 something and trying to figure it out-it's like they forget how it felt not having a freaking idea what to do about most things.
And so it rained for hours in Savannah this afternoon, but it wasn't so much the rain outside as it was the storm within.
Monday, August 31, 2009
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And I know you're praising Him in this storm and despite all the voices choosing to listen to the voice of truth!!!
I love you and those random texts and calls that make us laugh lighten up e'rything and even if only for a minute the lightening and thunder ceases and peace and calms abounds from the inside out.
I knew you'd get that radiopharmacy first exam yay!!! Keep pushing a little harder a little more everyday because i ran into up and he's definitely headed your way, little (-:
I hope the voices told you ab't how far you've come and what you've done. :)
It wont stop raining here either, summer is on it's was out:(
tell that mean vioce i said BOO!
"And so it rained for hours in Savannah this afternoon, but it wasn't so much the rain outside as it was the storm within."...inner peace be with u...
i know... about storms within and Allie...wow, nice to read through your life... i so feel you
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