You know that overwhelming feeling that wraps around you when you are swamped?
This weekend mostly felt that way. I have come to the disappointing realization that I am not superman...or woman if we are going to get all analytical about everything I say( which we really shouldn't because most of it is being processed by only half a brain cell)
If you know me even slightly, you know that I am hyper-organized; but no degree of planning or organization could have prepared me for the schedule insanity I have going on. Even after I clear my schedule of all self created activities, there still is not enough time in the world to do everything.
I had no idea that it would come to picking between church and assignments, but it did. And if you care to know-one of the most annoying voices in my head is the one that tells me over and over again when I am NOT putting God first. But this is not a religious/pious rant.
This is just me beefing(sheesh..like you don't use the word!) at life in general for being as busy as it is.
I canceled Guitar class on Saturday which literally aborted my plans to join Lincoln Brewster's Band.
I also called off movie plans-and honestly this is not a big deal;I don't care that much. What really sucked, was sitting in Starbucks all weekend trying to get the 300 nuclear math problems done, so that I could write the paper due on Tuesday morning and study for the test on Thursday. It all sucked because I really was supposed to be shopping with the little sister( and Princess), playing guitar and eating Mexican with Keith! It is after all the stuff we do on the weekend that helps us get through the week.
And so my face book status on Monday read: please God, let there be Friday!
I am entirely over scheduled for the next seven weeks,and I am concerned that in the rat race to find my dreams, I am turning into a monster who doesn't go to church, eat or socialize.
This monster needs help!
6 comments:
We love you, monster! :) It's gonna be alright. Your wonderwoman powers will kick in soon and, oh! Would you look at that? That was nuc med's ass flying out the window!
Help is right here...
(((((((((((scotchie))))))))))
After the supersize hug, go have a supersize hunk of choc cake and a supersize milkshake. Then it will suddenly be Friday.
Good luck.
Worry not monster- school's nastiness will last only for a season....
"Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same
Oh, don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow."Lyrics of Put your records on. Corrine Bailey Rae
this is me playing you this song. hoping you'll squeeze in time to dance to it!...today is wednesday and there are all signs that Friday will surely show. hang in there!
Friday is here...get ur groove back
How I envy these events of your life -help me to recall being twenty-plus too and attending Memphis State, '73 to '76. How very different from being 55 and fearing you could drop dead any minute and with this very different urgency driving you to want to perfect and to complete stuff before death knocked. It's all good. It's all wonderful though whatever drives us to live fully. How delicious all your agonizing seems. Yes, I envy.
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