Amazing

Dear Diary,

today I rocked a gallbladder exam! Be jealous! It was beautiful, complete with a juicy green gall bladder and 94% EF.

Yes, Nuclear Medicine excites me, gall bladders(and all kinds of other organs) make me smile, and I am a geek:-) whatever.

I know the world is plagued with serious problems-disease, hunger, war...et al. I acknowledge the seriousness of it and consequently refrain from overly dwelling on my personal disasters. I will not magnify my tiny, generally insignificant, utterly inconsequential private tragedies because, like I said-it sucks so much more elsewhere.

So, I am learning to celebrate. Every little thing that makes life more livable, everything that inspires me to throw on my faded navy blue scrubs every morning and go be amazing.

Amazing is not some magical ability to wow the world. Amazing is holding on to your sanity, your sense of humor and your ability to act in kindness, to forgive and to love unconditionally. Amazing is the smile my terminal patients give me while I inject chemicals into their veins-chemicals that will make them feel a lot more sick before they feel temporarily better.

Amazing is what you are despite everything; it is the wholeness birthed, ironically by a very ardent kind of brokenness.

And this complex life is a continued opportunity, a new chance every morning to go be Amazing.

Locked my keys in the car again. But I will tell you about that tomorrow. Goodnight.